Mason part 2

I took Mason to the doctor today. She was great. She totally agreed with me that it sounded like something was wrong. She thought, like I did, that it's weird that his behavior has changed since we came back from Utah, at the end of August. She thinks that something might have happened to him there. I don't know about that since I was with him all but the 2 days I was at CKU and few day trips with his grandparents. But we're going to get him evaluated by a child psychologist just in case. How sad that we have to go to a mental health professional for my 4 year old, but I know that they are specifically trained and know the right questions to ask to find out if there is anything wrong. I hope he tells me that there isn't anything wrong with Mason and that I am just crazy. (that would be true :) )

I feel so guilty because I feel like it's something I have done wrong. I have a bad temper and although I don't beat my kids or anything, I feel like I haven't taught them how to deal with their anger. My mom says I am too hard to myself. That may be, but I am responsible for the well being, both physically and mentally, of my kids and I take that job very seriously. I hope that all of my faults don't translate into my not teaching them something they need to know.

So that's the story today. More to come...